Tears of a clown

no one will ever know the truest side of me
you'll never get in close enough to see
keeping you at arms length for as long as i breathe
although i may say it i'll never love you truly

i laugh and play all kinds of games
but no one will ever see my true face
hiding behind all the tears of a clown
slowly as i die without making a sound

you can beg and you can plea
dream to see the other side of me
but i wouldnt even know where to look
she's locked away inside the pages of a book

i havent seen the deeper me in the longest time
i dont even know if she's still alive
but i'll sit here and pray for the day
to love someone just enough to show her again.

Angela O'Brien
21/01/2010