As i look bac on older times
posts about love and eternal happiness
i think about it now and think "you are such a cock"
all these stories of love and hope
yet im STILL a single mum
In my poems and songs
i really truly loved you
and i loved you, and you too
but now i hate you all
such a sad little girl
a fool, fooled by lovers
never really understood it until
i was left here all alone
forced to stand tall
forced to be strong
forced to do it on my own
with no one to help me up
now i look back and think of the good times
how happy i must have been
and i hope and i pray for the day
when i'll feel that way again
Angela O'Brien
20/12/2009
(C) Copyright Australia
Sunday, December 20, 2009
My way home
To put it simply this is about a current situation in my life that i dont wanna miss out but my mind messes with me and plants doubt where there shouldnt be any... I dont believe im good enough and my mind tells me that i should live, and die... alone... i dont want that... It takes less than 2 seconds to wipe my doubts which is quite surprising... must be something really special... its too good to be true... but i cant help but ask myself what i did that was so good... and on the other hand i cant help but wonder when it, like everything else... will be ripped out from under my feet...
if you dont know what its about its coz ur not meant to know...
Chorus:
blinded by the lies of my own self esteem
caught in the middle of a broken mans dream
struggle to find my way back home
to your arms so comforting
stuggle to find my way home again
struggle to find my way home
Verse 1:
walking alone down a one way street
and im walking the wrong way round
lights flashing horns are blaring
people screaming "move out the way"
you've done nothing to make me doubt
still i find it hard to see
always living in my own illusion
that you'll never really be with me
pre- hook:
too good to be true and
even though you are
my mindset still tries to trick me
fills me up with what ifs and maybe's
make me say things wrong
make me screw it up
so then you will dissapear
and leave me on my own
chorus:
verse 2:
i know that your not perfect
but to me your close enough
with you i lose all my inhibitions
and i can actually be myself
i feel like i dont have to hide myself
cause you will happily take me as i am
and you dont run away in fear
like everyone else seems to do.
pre hook:
chorus X2
Angela O'Brien
17/11/2009
(C)Copyright Australia
if you dont know what its about its coz ur not meant to know...
Chorus:
blinded by the lies of my own self esteem
caught in the middle of a broken mans dream
struggle to find my way back home
to your arms so comforting
stuggle to find my way home again
struggle to find my way home
Verse 1:
walking alone down a one way street
and im walking the wrong way round
lights flashing horns are blaring
people screaming "move out the way"
you've done nothing to make me doubt
still i find it hard to see
always living in my own illusion
that you'll never really be with me
pre- hook:
too good to be true and
even though you are
my mindset still tries to trick me
fills me up with what ifs and maybe's
make me say things wrong
make me screw it up
so then you will dissapear
and leave me on my own
chorus:
verse 2:
i know that your not perfect
but to me your close enough
with you i lose all my inhibitions
and i can actually be myself
i feel like i dont have to hide myself
cause you will happily take me as i am
and you dont run away in fear
like everyone else seems to do.
pre hook:
chorus X2
Angela O'Brien
17/11/2009
(C)Copyright Australia
Two hearts
im in an extraordinarily creative mood... from drawing portraits to writing songs... its crazy but i'm using it to the max while its here lol...
Chorus:
two hearts
beating to the same drum
praying for the day
to finally come
two hearts
beating to the same drum
longing for the day
when they can beat as one
Verse 1:
syncronised in mind and body
not quite heart and soul
close enough to keep us warm
but still too far away
close enough to see it
close enough to touch
left with hopes and dreams
at this time of maybe
Pre hook:
my heart is in your hands
your heart is in mine
but things are still complicated
it was just the wrong time
my heart is in your hands
your heart is in mine
close enough to touch your face
but too far to intertwine
chorus:
verse 2:
when i think of you i smile
awesome's what i think of you
you see me and its worthwhile
coz you think im awesome too
longing for the day
when i see you again
even if that day is years away
patiently i'll still wait
Pre Hook:
Chorus:
Bridge:
Two hearts syncronised
two hearts intertwined
two hearts reaching out
two hearts touching stars
two hearts baby me and you
two hearts will pull through
two hearts joined as one
two hearts forevermore
Chorus:
pre hook:
chorus X2:
written by angela o'brien
20/11/2009
(C) copyright Australia
Chorus:
two hearts
beating to the same drum
praying for the day
to finally come
two hearts
beating to the same drum
longing for the day
when they can beat as one
Verse 1:
syncronised in mind and body
not quite heart and soul
close enough to keep us warm
but still too far away
close enough to see it
close enough to touch
left with hopes and dreams
at this time of maybe
Pre hook:
my heart is in your hands
your heart is in mine
but things are still complicated
it was just the wrong time
my heart is in your hands
your heart is in mine
close enough to touch your face
but too far to intertwine
chorus:
verse 2:
when i think of you i smile
awesome's what i think of you
you see me and its worthwhile
coz you think im awesome too
longing for the day
when i see you again
even if that day is years away
patiently i'll still wait
Pre Hook:
Chorus:
Bridge:
Two hearts syncronised
two hearts intertwined
two hearts reaching out
two hearts touching stars
two hearts baby me and you
two hearts will pull through
two hearts joined as one
two hearts forevermore
Chorus:
pre hook:
chorus X2:
written by angela o'brien
20/11/2009
(C) copyright Australia
Count me out
im in a writing mood and im back in my old boots... guess this is where im destined to live for the rest of my life... :'(
CHORUS:
You can just count me out now
nothing left here for me
nothing left to lose
only thing i was fighting for was you
so baby just count me out now
i got not fight left in me
im on the edge of it all
all i need is one last push
VERSE ONE:
i'd like to say i wish that
i'd never ever even met you
but you and i both know
that would be so far from truth
i wanna wake up every day
without raindrops on my face
but every day is a rainy day
as long as your away
PREHOOK:
sorry seems to be the hardest word
for you to believe in
but i'm willing to say it a million times
until you finally believe in me again
CHORUS:
VERSE TWO:
I lay here staring baby
staring at your picture and
i dont know what to say or do
so now i just cry at knowing
all the hurtful things i said to you
if i could take it back
and baby just trust you
i'll do anything to prove i would
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
count me out baby count me out
cause im already down
my heart was damaged but
i still gave it to you
so count me out baby count me out
cause im already dead
my mind made up fantasies
to make you leave my life
so baby just count me out
CHORUSX2:
OUTTRO:
so count me out baby count me out
coz im already dead
my mind made up fantasies
to make you leave my life
so baby just count me out
CHORUS:
You can just count me out now
nothing left here for me
nothing left to lose
only thing i was fighting for was you
so baby just count me out now
i got not fight left in me
im on the edge of it all
all i need is one last push
VERSE ONE:
i'd like to say i wish that
i'd never ever even met you
but you and i both know
that would be so far from truth
i wanna wake up every day
without raindrops on my face
but every day is a rainy day
as long as your away
PREHOOK:
sorry seems to be the hardest word
for you to believe in
but i'm willing to say it a million times
until you finally believe in me again
CHORUS:
VERSE TWO:
I lay here staring baby
staring at your picture and
i dont know what to say or do
so now i just cry at knowing
all the hurtful things i said to you
if i could take it back
and baby just trust you
i'll do anything to prove i would
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
count me out baby count me out
cause im already down
my heart was damaged but
i still gave it to you
so count me out baby count me out
cause im already dead
my mind made up fantasies
to make you leave my life
so baby just count me out
CHORUSX2:
OUTTRO:
so count me out baby count me out
coz im already dead
my mind made up fantasies
to make you leave my life
so baby just count me out
Princess
this is about a combination of two emotions... one emotion is a one night stand i had and how it made me feel when he basically turned on me as soon as he got what he wanted and how i feel about it now... and the other emotion is about someone i like now and yeh...
CHORUS:
I just cant be your one night stand
baby its not who i am
I'm a princess who wears the pretty dress
and i need to be loved
I'll never again be a one night stand
wait for the real thing
if i have to wait for an eternity
thats ok with me
VERSE 1:
I thought you were a maybe
but you were just for the night
i need someone who'll still be there
when the night turns to daytime
who'll still want me in the morning
instead of leaving me
with the answering machine
and sitting here wondering
PRE HOOK:
never again will i be
a one nighters fling
i need some loving care
need more than a friend
CHORUS
VERSE 2:
i know your not the one for me
but maybe he could be
he gets the way i think
better than the rest
i may be a bit of a handful at times
but you got what it takes to tame me
to help me build bridges and move on
from all the darkness in my past
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS to fade:
CHORUS:
I just cant be your one night stand
baby its not who i am
I'm a princess who wears the pretty dress
and i need to be loved
I'll never again be a one night stand
wait for the real thing
if i have to wait for an eternity
thats ok with me
VERSE 1:
I thought you were a maybe
but you were just for the night
i need someone who'll still be there
when the night turns to daytime
who'll still want me in the morning
instead of leaving me
with the answering machine
and sitting here wondering
PRE HOOK:
never again will i be
a one nighters fling
i need some loving care
need more than a friend
CHORUS
VERSE 2:
i know your not the one for me
but maybe he could be
he gets the way i think
better than the rest
i may be a bit of a handful at times
but you got what it takes to tame me
to help me build bridges and move on
from all the darkness in my past
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS to fade:
Safety net (i love you)
Anyone who knows me knows what this is about... I'm trying so hard to be quiet but i cant ignore my feelings and when i try to shut them out they start eating away at me... so i decided to write them down...
CHORUS:
I cant stand knowing i hurt you,
wish there was a way to show my truth,
I really am a safe bet for you,
coz i already told you i loved you too,
wish you could see it in my eyes,
the pain whenever i cry,
need you in my arms so tight,
where the feeling is just right
VERSE 1:
you came into my life like a hurracane baby
didnt even see ya coming
thats the best kinda love they say
the one that comes without a warning
so now i've given myelf completely
and i cant seem to get enough
wanna know baby what youre thinking
do i have what it takes to be your love
PRE HOOK:
never gave myself up so easily
it usually takes so much longer than this
never gave myself up for a maybe
but theres something about you i dont wanna miss
VERSE 2:
I know that you feel it too
its written in your eyes
everyone can see it baby
so why you tryna hide
me and you together baby
would be so heaven sent
you lovin me and me loving you
dont get much better than that
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
I wanna be your safety net
baby let me be your safe bet
i just wanna be your safety net
baby please let me be your safe bet
let me be the only thing in your life
that always makes total sense
let me be your safety net baby
coz you know i'll pass the test
CHORUS:
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS X2
OUTTRO:
I could love you for the rest of my life
baby just let me try
written by Angela O'Brien
26/11/09
(C)copyright Australia
CHORUS:
I cant stand knowing i hurt you,
wish there was a way to show my truth,
I really am a safe bet for you,
coz i already told you i loved you too,
wish you could see it in my eyes,
the pain whenever i cry,
need you in my arms so tight,
where the feeling is just right
VERSE 1:
you came into my life like a hurracane baby
didnt even see ya coming
thats the best kinda love they say
the one that comes without a warning
so now i've given myelf completely
and i cant seem to get enough
wanna know baby what youre thinking
do i have what it takes to be your love
PRE HOOK:
never gave myself up so easily
it usually takes so much longer than this
never gave myself up for a maybe
but theres something about you i dont wanna miss
VERSE 2:
I know that you feel it too
its written in your eyes
everyone can see it baby
so why you tryna hide
me and you together baby
would be so heaven sent
you lovin me and me loving you
dont get much better than that
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
I wanna be your safety net
baby let me be your safe bet
i just wanna be your safety net
baby please let me be your safe bet
let me be the only thing in your life
that always makes total sense
let me be your safety net baby
coz you know i'll pass the test
CHORUS:
PRE HOOK:
CHORUS X2
OUTTRO:
I could love you for the rest of my life
baby just let me try
written by Angela O'Brien
26/11/09
(C)copyright Australia
Beautiful Screwup
DONT ASK WHERE IT CAME FROM... I DONT KNOW LOL
She's a wonder how she's so beautiful
yet she's such a broken child
she's so beautifully broken
such a beautiful screwup
never seems to get it right
no matter how hard she tries
always lets everyone down
makes themm all walk away
all alone in a cold dark room
dreaming of what coulda been
dreaming of the sun on her face
of one simple day of peace
shes a beautiful screwup
cant seem to catch a clue
always messing everything up
keep her away from you
She's a wonder how she's so beautiful
yet she's such a broken child
she's so beautifully broken
such a beautiful screwup
never seems to get it right
no matter how hard she tries
always lets everyone down
makes themm all walk away
all alone in a cold dark room
dreaming of what coulda been
dreaming of the sun on her face
of one simple day of peace
shes a beautiful screwup
cant seem to catch a clue
always messing everything up
keep her away from you
Criminal Mastermind
had everyone fooled
with your snap tongue lies
was it only me you lied to
or everyone in your life
you tried to squirm out
blame it on the meds
blame it on the stress
even blame it on your ex
but no one else is at fault
this all falls on you
so when everyone leaves
will you finally see truth
karma will come for you
maybe not today
but someday not far away
you'll get whats coming to you
i speak not of ill will
i speak not of hate
i'm just saddened by you
and your evil ways
one day you will feel true pain
and it will be of no fault but your own
when the whole world turns from you
and leaves you all alone..
with your snap tongue lies
was it only me you lied to
or everyone in your life
you tried to squirm out
blame it on the meds
blame it on the stress
even blame it on your ex
but no one else is at fault
this all falls on you
so when everyone leaves
will you finally see truth
karma will come for you
maybe not today
but someday not far away
you'll get whats coming to you
i speak not of ill will
i speak not of hate
i'm just saddened by you
and your evil ways
one day you will feel true pain
and it will be of no fault but your own
when the whole world turns from you
and leaves you all alone..
Friday, November 13, 2009
old star
i once was a lonely heart
now ill never be the same
make love under the same old star
but loving with a brand new heart
young hearts run free
through the vast open fields
careless to the worlds tragedy
living together in oblivion
now ill never be the same
make love under the same old star
but loving with a brand new heart
young hearts run free
through the vast open fields
careless to the worlds tragedy
living together in oblivion
roses in bloom
roses in bloom
in the fresh sunshine
never seen something so beautiful
beneath the big blue sky
roses so sweet
a scent made in heaven
just like me and you
the feelings heaven sent
in the fresh sunshine
never seen something so beautiful
beneath the big blue sky
roses so sweet
a scent made in heaven
just like me and you
the feelings heaven sent
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Daydream
things that were going through my mind as i started to fall asleep at my computer...
chorus:
slipping into a daydream
of a place id rather be
doing things i love to do
when its just me and you
slipping into a daydream
taking my mind away
from all life's misery
to a better place just you and me
verse 1:
as i listen to sweet music
and start to close my eyes
your face and your body
start entering my mind
memories are bittersweet tastes
of the place id rather be
your voice echoes in my ear
telling me you want me
pre hook:
face to face
hand in hand
minds are syncronised
thinking the same thing
one look in my eyes
and you knew it was true
one kiss from my lips
you knew i wanted you
chorus:
verse 2:
bodys connected
coming together as one
the world seemed to dissapear
leaving us all alone
to do whatever we please
free range in motion
rules go out the window
when we are left alone
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i cant help myself
when im alone with you
want to tell you all the things
that i would like to do
kiss on the neck
touch on the cheek
poke out the tongue
i know you want me
chorus:
pre hook
chorus X2
written by Angela O'brien
01/11/09
(C) copyright Australia
chorus:
slipping into a daydream
of a place id rather be
doing things i love to do
when its just me and you
slipping into a daydream
taking my mind away
from all life's misery
to a better place just you and me
verse 1:
as i listen to sweet music
and start to close my eyes
your face and your body
start entering my mind
memories are bittersweet tastes
of the place id rather be
your voice echoes in my ear
telling me you want me
pre hook:
face to face
hand in hand
minds are syncronised
thinking the same thing
one look in my eyes
and you knew it was true
one kiss from my lips
you knew i wanted you
chorus:
verse 2:
bodys connected
coming together as one
the world seemed to dissapear
leaving us all alone
to do whatever we please
free range in motion
rules go out the window
when we are left alone
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i cant help myself
when im alone with you
want to tell you all the things
that i would like to do
kiss on the neck
touch on the cheek
poke out the tongue
i know you want me
chorus:
pre hook
chorus X2
written by Angela O'brien
01/11/09
(C) copyright Australia
Lost for words
i like to write
to show my mood
but now i cant
when it comes to you
i dont know what to say
how to make it clear
how to show you what im thinking
without you running in fear
i could make up a poem
that ran for a mile
but it wouldnt make a difference
im still a broken worthless child.
to show my mood
but now i cant
when it comes to you
i dont know what to say
how to make it clear
how to show you what im thinking
without you running in fear
i could make up a poem
that ran for a mile
but it wouldnt make a difference
im still a broken worthless child.
Grown up
Forced to be a grown up
Never got to play
Never got to live life like
An innocent little girl
Forced to be a big girl
And the little girl inside
Went to the wayside
I can still hear her cry
Still suffering
After so many years
Never believing that i
Was worthy of anything
I guess your it for me
The best ill ever do
A lil smacking around
That’s the life of me n u
If i talk back tell you what to do
A kick here a bruised wrist there
Lesson learned i know my place
For i belong beneath you
Dirt is what i am
I open my mouth
Poison comes out
Killing anyone around
When everyone leaves me
And im standing here alone
Ill have finally learned my lesson
Karma will have finally come
Never got to play
Never got to live life like
An innocent little girl
Forced to be a big girl
And the little girl inside
Went to the wayside
I can still hear her cry
Still suffering
After so many years
Never believing that i
Was worthy of anything
I guess your it for me
The best ill ever do
A lil smacking around
That’s the life of me n u
If i talk back tell you what to do
A kick here a bruised wrist there
Lesson learned i know my place
For i belong beneath you
Dirt is what i am
I open my mouth
Poison comes out
Killing anyone around
When everyone leaves me
And im standing here alone
Ill have finally learned my lesson
Karma will have finally come
Repeat Previous
If i could i would
But i cant so i don’t
Wish i could turn it of but i
Don’t know where it came from
If i could shelter my mind
Turn it off sometime
But i don’t have the off switch
Don’t know where its gone
I spent so long
Feeling like i meant nothing
Like the world would be
Better off without me
Now i feel like i mean something
Like its finally ok to be me
But if i let my guard down
Its only gonna mess with me
Then ill be back here again
Where i was before
Feeling the same old pain
Suffer the same old torture
Reaching for the bottle again
Reaching for the pills
Right back where i started
Bleeding on the floor
But i cant so i don’t
Wish i could turn it of but i
Don’t know where it came from
If i could shelter my mind
Turn it off sometime
But i don’t have the off switch
Don’t know where its gone
I spent so long
Feeling like i meant nothing
Like the world would be
Better off without me
Now i feel like i mean something
Like its finally ok to be me
But if i let my guard down
Its only gonna mess with me
Then ill be back here again
Where i was before
Feeling the same old pain
Suffer the same old torture
Reaching for the bottle again
Reaching for the pills
Right back where i started
Bleeding on the floor
Out of it.
Out of it:
Why cant i just live a normal life like you
Whys all the things in my life have to be so screwed
I get a glimmer of hope, think it will be fine
Then I get dragged back to earth
and told that none of it is true
I try to make a difference and be what you want
But you change your mind so i fuck it up
I just don’t understand why i always get it wrong
Why im left here drowning in a pool of my own blood
I try to be a good girl,
the princess you wanna see
But beauty grace and elegance are
Things you wont find in me
So take me as i am or leave me on my own
You say that you love me
you say that you care
But you are the reason for my pain and despair
Your the reason why
i tried to end it all
With a bottle of Jim beam
and a box of panadol
Why cant i just live a normal life like you
Whys all the things in my life have to be so screwed
I get a glimmer of hope, think it will be fine
Then I get dragged back to earth
and told that none of it is true
I try to make a difference and be what you want
But you change your mind so i fuck it up
I just don’t understand why i always get it wrong
Why im left here drowning in a pool of my own blood
I try to be a good girl,
the princess you wanna see
But beauty grace and elegance are
Things you wont find in me
So take me as i am or leave me on my own
You say that you love me
you say that you care
But you are the reason for my pain and despair
Your the reason why
i tried to end it all
With a bottle of Jim beam
and a box of panadol
Life Saver
I was looking at a group i joined and it got me thinking about January... And the people who know me know what January means... and as for the people who dont know... this poem wil clear it up.
This poem is Dedicated to Chloe and even though we're not friends anymore this peom is also dedicated to Jana... our lives took us in different directions but i will always remember the day you litterally saved my life... If it wasnt for you two girls i would have gone to bed for the last time that night but yuo kept me awake and were with me in some way (Jana- in person/ Chloe- over msn lol) and you saved my life and no matter what life throws at us or where life takes us i'll never forget it...
LIFE SAVER:
i picked up the box and i picked up the bottle
this time i was gonna do it right
but when i realised what a fool i was
it was too late to turn back
the idiocy was beginning to take affect
I felt numb as my legs turned to mush
i picked up the phone and barely managed to mutter the words
i need you before you hung up and came running
or logged on to msn to talk me down
from the cliff i was standing on
you saved my life that night
and thats not me stretching the truth
you and i both know i mean it literally
and i wont forget it for eternity
however long that may be
I turned myself around and didnt take the abuse
i looked at things differently
in some kinda way you made it easier for me
to make the choices i've made
and now i'm finally happy
This poem is Dedicated to Chloe and even though we're not friends anymore this peom is also dedicated to Jana... our lives took us in different directions but i will always remember the day you litterally saved my life... If it wasnt for you two girls i would have gone to bed for the last time that night but yuo kept me awake and were with me in some way (Jana- in person/ Chloe- over msn lol) and you saved my life and no matter what life throws at us or where life takes us i'll never forget it...
LIFE SAVER:
i picked up the box and i picked up the bottle
this time i was gonna do it right
but when i realised what a fool i was
it was too late to turn back
the idiocy was beginning to take affect
I felt numb as my legs turned to mush
i picked up the phone and barely managed to mutter the words
i need you before you hung up and came running
or logged on to msn to talk me down
from the cliff i was standing on
you saved my life that night
and thats not me stretching the truth
you and i both know i mean it literally
and i wont forget it for eternity
however long that may be
I turned myself around and didnt take the abuse
i looked at things differently
in some kinda way you made it easier for me
to make the choices i've made
and now i'm finally happy
Untitled
*written while pissed so you know its tru*
i know you knew
now im not sure
i called your name and
you closed the door
what'd i do wrong?
how can i show you
how can i prove
what goes through my mind
i get cocky at times
its just coz im scared
i put my heart out there
then its hard to repair
after 5 years with him
didnt think id want someone new
swore id wait a year
then i found you
i didnt wanna wait
i want to be your all
even after i saw you
made me want you even more
but you ran for the hills
like the rest of them do
i should go back to my ex
coz he still wants me too.
i really wanna know
what the FUCK i did wrong
why you went away
why im still alone
and craving you like crazy.
i know you knew
now im not sure
i called your name and
you closed the door
what'd i do wrong?
how can i show you
how can i prove
what goes through my mind
i get cocky at times
its just coz im scared
i put my heart out there
then its hard to repair
after 5 years with him
didnt think id want someone new
swore id wait a year
then i found you
i didnt wanna wait
i want to be your all
even after i saw you
made me want you even more
but you ran for the hills
like the rest of them do
i should go back to my ex
coz he still wants me too.
i really wanna know
what the FUCK i did wrong
why you went away
why im still alone
and craving you like crazy.
Love is a borderline feeling
theres a fine line between loving someone
and being IN love
a whirlpool of emotions
spinning round in your head
no longer thinking clearly
never resting your head.
when you love someone
simply means that you care
the way you love your family
and the way your friends
but being IN LOVE is just a lil different
it's the fastest way into an early grave
and i surely dont recommend it
it's easy to fall in love and when it falls apart
it never fully heals.
its ok to say i love you
without giving up your whole heart
coz once you give it completely
i belongs to someone else.
and being IN love
a whirlpool of emotions
spinning round in your head
no longer thinking clearly
never resting your head.
when you love someone
simply means that you care
the way you love your family
and the way your friends
but being IN LOVE is just a lil different
it's the fastest way into an early grave
and i surely dont recommend it
it's easy to fall in love and when it falls apart
it never fully heals.
its ok to say i love you
without giving up your whole heart
coz once you give it completely
i belongs to someone else.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Muse
Chorus:
thinking feeling
now im healing
you make me see
a world i wanna live in
if i can live each day
with you close by
i know i'll be fine
with my muse by my side
verse 1:
i was cold and alone
in a world giving up
i didnt think id ever see
another day of sunshine
but now that your around
even when it rains
i still manage to feel
sunshinee on my face
pre hook:
im a fighter
a songwriter
didnt expect to find
a muse in your eyes
i was heartbroken
death was in cue
now im always smiling
found a muse in you
chorus:
verse 2:
i hope i never lose you
now that you are found
if its really meant to be
youll always be around
not a single tear
not a single dark thought
has entered my mind
since you entered my heart
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i thought you had to be
too good to be tru
took my hand
said you are real
one look in your eyes
i know its the thruth
chorus:
pre hook:
chorus X2:
angela obrien
23/10/09
thinking feeling
now im healing
you make me see
a world i wanna live in
if i can live each day
with you close by
i know i'll be fine
with my muse by my side
verse 1:
i was cold and alone
in a world giving up
i didnt think id ever see
another day of sunshine
but now that your around
even when it rains
i still manage to feel
sunshinee on my face
pre hook:
im a fighter
a songwriter
didnt expect to find
a muse in your eyes
i was heartbroken
death was in cue
now im always smiling
found a muse in you
chorus:
verse 2:
i hope i never lose you
now that you are found
if its really meant to be
youll always be around
not a single tear
not a single dark thought
has entered my mind
since you entered my heart
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i thought you had to be
too good to be tru
took my hand
said you are real
one look in your eyes
i know its the thruth
chorus:
pre hook:
chorus X2:
angela obrien
23/10/09
My girls
this song is dedicated to my girls... you help me through the darkest of times and when im losing my mind you help me find it and i will always have a place in my heart for you... i love you guys
Chorus:
my girls
are always there for me
always care for me
try to keep me laughing
my girls
always down with me
clown around with me
are then when im in need
and i'll love my girls
forever more
Verse 1:
when i feel like i cant
you tell me that i can
when im down for the count
you bring me back to earth
when im ready to give up
you tell me to be strong
that it'll all be over soon
and my hurt will be gone
pre hook:
my girls are my rocks
my prescription pills
if i didnt have em
i wouldnt be around
my girls are my angels
always with an eye
making sure im getting there
and staying by my side
chorus:
verse 2:
i gave up, closed the door
you kicked it down
grabbed my hand
dragging me back accross the floor
out of the darkness
in the light
if it werent for you girls
i know i woulda died... that night
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
you are my girls
my gorgeous girls
and i'd be dead
if it werent for you
you saved my life
a thousand times
held my hand and you
never gave up
chorus X2
written by Angela Obrien
17/10/09
(c) copyright australia
Chorus:
my girls
are always there for me
always care for me
try to keep me laughing
my girls
always down with me
clown around with me
are then when im in need
and i'll love my girls
forever more
Verse 1:
when i feel like i cant
you tell me that i can
when im down for the count
you bring me back to earth
when im ready to give up
you tell me to be strong
that it'll all be over soon
and my hurt will be gone
pre hook:
my girls are my rocks
my prescription pills
if i didnt have em
i wouldnt be around
my girls are my angels
always with an eye
making sure im getting there
and staying by my side
chorus:
verse 2:
i gave up, closed the door
you kicked it down
grabbed my hand
dragging me back accross the floor
out of the darkness
in the light
if it werent for you girls
i know i woulda died... that night
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
you are my girls
my gorgeous girls
and i'd be dead
if it werent for you
you saved my life
a thousand times
held my hand and you
never gave up
chorus X2
written by Angela Obrien
17/10/09
(c) copyright australia
Sex song
Verse 1:
you know what to do
to drive me wild
so come on baby
lets go for a ride
we can go anywhere
i dont mind
lets go and paint the town
a new shade of white
pre hook:
im a blank canvas
baby do what you want
keep pressing all my buttons babe
and please dont stop
Chorus:
give it to me baby please
give it to me im down on my knees
give it to me all night long
baby do me till i come
Verse 2:
baby take me now
i cant wait anymore
raise my skirt up high enough
to find no panties on
tie me down with handcuffs
even rope'll do
just get into that room
and baby lets screw
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
thats where i want it babe
harder faster give me more
take me baby on the bed
take me on the floor
you can take me anywhere i dont k=mind
coz u got what i need
for a really good time
pre hook
chorus
outtro:
that was awesome babe
you do it like a pro
now get dressed get outta here
before my boyfriend gets home
written by angela obrien on 20/10/2008
(c) Copyright Australia
you know what to do
to drive me wild
so come on baby
lets go for a ride
we can go anywhere
i dont mind
lets go and paint the town
a new shade of white
pre hook:
im a blank canvas
baby do what you want
keep pressing all my buttons babe
and please dont stop
Chorus:
give it to me baby please
give it to me im down on my knees
give it to me all night long
baby do me till i come
Verse 2:
baby take me now
i cant wait anymore
raise my skirt up high enough
to find no panties on
tie me down with handcuffs
even rope'll do
just get into that room
and baby lets screw
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
thats where i want it babe
harder faster give me more
take me baby on the bed
take me on the floor
you can take me anywhere i dont k=mind
coz u got what i need
for a really good time
pre hook
chorus
outtro:
that was awesome babe
you do it like a pro
now get dressed get outta here
before my boyfriend gets home
written by angela obrien on 20/10/2008
(c) Copyright Australia
yeah i was feeling flirty. dont like it? build a bridge...
dec08
dec08
hope
this is the first love style song ive written in years so excuse the corniness and crapness hahahaha
its 3am and im listening to MARIO KART LOVESONG... felt inspired...
Chorus:
never thought id see the day
when the sun would shine on me again
but you came around
showed me a better way
showed me that its ok
helped me to smile
i havent smiled like that
in quite a while
didnt know i still could
Verse 1:
theres something about you
i cant quite understand
is why you go out of your way
to take me by the hand
showed me theres still hope
and that i cant give up
made me feel worth something
made me feel special
pre hook:
they're a dying breed
people like you
but some people are lucky
to find one of the few
hope i can be one of them
since ive found you
but im already lucky
for just knowing you
chorus
verse 2
havent written with my heart
in quite some time
but theres just something there now
makes me see i can
pick up a pencil, a pad and a pen
sit down and write
something that golden
cause you are my muse
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i thought it was gone
never to come back
then you opened my eyes
and now i see
hope is still within me
chorus x2
written by Angela O'Brien
20/10/09
its 3am and im listening to MARIO KART LOVESONG... felt inspired...
Chorus:
never thought id see the day
when the sun would shine on me again
but you came around
showed me a better way
showed me that its ok
helped me to smile
i havent smiled like that
in quite a while
didnt know i still could
Verse 1:
theres something about you
i cant quite understand
is why you go out of your way
to take me by the hand
showed me theres still hope
and that i cant give up
made me feel worth something
made me feel special
pre hook:
they're a dying breed
people like you
but some people are lucky
to find one of the few
hope i can be one of them
since ive found you
but im already lucky
for just knowing you
chorus
verse 2
havent written with my heart
in quite some time
but theres just something there now
makes me see i can
pick up a pencil, a pad and a pen
sit down and write
something that golden
cause you are my muse
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
i thought it was gone
never to come back
then you opened my eyes
and now i see
hope is still within me
chorus x2
written by Angela O'Brien
20/10/09
Forever and Allways
2nd attempt at this song... grrfucken hahahaha had just finished the first one and it dissapeared :(:S...
dedicated to chloe leigh.
verse 1:
i still remember the day
when we first met
had a few drinks
slept in the same bed
who woulda thought
we'd ever come this far
and still be friends
6 years later
pre hook:
been to hell and back
sent each other there
always come back better
and even stronger friends
chorus:
forever and always
you and me
we pick each other up
tear each other down
make each other bleed
but we'll still be friends
till we fade away
forver and always
verse 2:
we're like 2 halves
of the same person
syncronized in heart and mind
twin souls you and me
you bring out the best in me
you bring out the worst in me
but no mater what youve done to me
your still part of my family
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
been to hell and back again
still managed to stay friends
some people say we're nuts
shouldnt trust each other
sometimes we prolly shouldnt
but we do coz our bond is stronger
than anything people can comprehend
chorus
pre hook
chorus x2
dedicated to chloe leigh.
verse 1:
i still remember the day
when we first met
had a few drinks
slept in the same bed
who woulda thought
we'd ever come this far
and still be friends
6 years later
pre hook:
been to hell and back
sent each other there
always come back better
and even stronger friends
chorus:
forever and always
you and me
we pick each other up
tear each other down
make each other bleed
but we'll still be friends
till we fade away
forver and always
verse 2:
we're like 2 halves
of the same person
syncronized in heart and mind
twin souls you and me
you bring out the best in me
you bring out the worst in me
but no mater what youve done to me
your still part of my family
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
been to hell and back again
still managed to stay friends
some people say we're nuts
shouldnt trust each other
sometimes we prolly shouldnt
but we do coz our bond is stronger
than anything people can comprehend
chorus
pre hook
chorus x2
The tatoo that me n chloe are going to get together to not only symbolise our friendship but to symbolise new beginnings.
Sacrifice
dont ask where it came from coz i honestly dont know
Chorus:
give my life
to save you
sacrifice my mind
to leave yours inside
sacrifice my heart
for you too survive
id do anything for you
coz your my life
verse 1:
your the reason my heart beats
the reason my mind thinks
the reason my life keeps going
the reason im happy
now your gone my heart stopped
my mind is froze
and my life is gone
i know ill die alone
prehook
if i could if i could
give my life
in exchange for you back
id do it without thinking
chorus:
verse 2:
my world was so bright
when u brought in the sun
now that uve faded away
night fills my days
no stars no moon
nothing but empty space
as i sit in a corner
and cry away my pain
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
my bitter sweet sacrifice
for you id lay my life
oh my bittersweet sacrifice
wish you knew that ive tried
but i can see now
no matter what i do
youll never be mine again
rest in piece my lover, my friend
ill never forget you
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
written by angela obrien
21/10/09
(c) copyright australia
Chorus:
give my life
to save you
sacrifice my mind
to leave yours inside
sacrifice my heart
for you too survive
id do anything for you
coz your my life
verse 1:
your the reason my heart beats
the reason my mind thinks
the reason my life keeps going
the reason im happy
now your gone my heart stopped
my mind is froze
and my life is gone
i know ill die alone
prehook
if i could if i could
give my life
in exchange for you back
id do it without thinking
chorus:
verse 2:
my world was so bright
when u brought in the sun
now that uve faded away
night fills my days
no stars no moon
nothing but empty space
as i sit in a corner
and cry away my pain
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
my bitter sweet sacrifice
for you id lay my life
oh my bittersweet sacrifice
wish you knew that ive tried
but i can see now
no matter what i do
youll never be mine again
rest in piece my lover, my friend
ill never forget you
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
written by angela obrien
21/10/09
(c) copyright australia
Innocence
as i lay me down to sleep
i pray it'll be my last
cause every morning i awake
with harsh memories of my past.
i thought id get through
my friends helped me keep the felings at bay
thought i could look you in the eye
and not feel the same
but when i see you i go back
to the days when you'd pay
to put your hands on me
took my innocence away
i tried to end my life
i tried to end yours
but both of us r living
and im still broken and sore
believed you, trusted you
was fooled by you
you only wanted to play
your sick n twisted games
who woulda thought that
after 6 years i'd still bleed
as if it was yesterday
i still remember your hand on me
i pray it'll be my last
cause every morning i awake
with harsh memories of my past.
i thought id get through
my friends helped me keep the felings at bay
thought i could look you in the eye
and not feel the same
but when i see you i go back
to the days when you'd pay
to put your hands on me
took my innocence away
i tried to end my life
i tried to end yours
but both of us r living
and im still broken and sore
believed you, trusted you
was fooled by you
you only wanted to play
your sick n twisted games
who woulda thought that
after 6 years i'd still bleed
as if it was yesterday
i still remember your hand on me
Legacy
this song has come from seeing a picture of yet another abused child... why do people have children and then turn around and take them from the world? a child is a miracle and can single handedly change your life forever. ivve seen too many videos of abused children and when its not leaving me in tears its sending me to the toilet to throw up... as a mother i know how stressful being a parent can be and as a post sufferer of PND i know that it can feel like its too much at times but i just dont understand how a parent can do that to thier own flesh and blood... rapists and murderers are nothing compared to a person who can take the life of something THEY created.
Legacy:
chorus:
how you can put your hands
on something that you made
and watch those tiny eyes
slowly fade to black
how can you take the life
of something that you made
take your ownly legacy
and make it fade away
verse 1
so young so sweet
i smile when you smile
laugh when you laugh
grandma loves you
now ill never see
your rosy red cheeks
ten fingers ten toes
cute lil button nose
pre hook:
so innocent
so sweet
taken away
my legacy
so innocent
so cute
taken away
by you
chorus:
verse 2:
i just dont understand how it works
how can you not love your blood
how can you not love
if its your own dna
how can you take away
something so sweet n small
how can you hate
something so innocent
how can you hate me
let it all go to waste
bridge:
abused by you
tortured by you
never knew
a real life
murdered by you
destroyed by you
never to see
another day
chorus:
pre hook:
chours:
pre hook:
written by angela obrien
22/10/09
Legacy:
chorus:
how you can put your hands
on something that you made
and watch those tiny eyes
slowly fade to black
how can you take the life
of something that you made
take your ownly legacy
and make it fade away
verse 1
so young so sweet
i smile when you smile
laugh when you laugh
grandma loves you
now ill never see
your rosy red cheeks
ten fingers ten toes
cute lil button nose
pre hook:
so innocent
so sweet
taken away
my legacy
so innocent
so cute
taken away
by you
chorus:
verse 2:
i just dont understand how it works
how can you not love your blood
how can you not love
if its your own dna
how can you take away
something so sweet n small
how can you hate
something so innocent
how can you hate me
let it all go to waste
bridge:
abused by you
tortured by you
never knew
a real life
murdered by you
destroyed by you
never to see
another day
chorus:
pre hook:
chours:
pre hook:
written by angela obrien
22/10/09
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Get it through
chorus:
boy when you gonna
get it through
get it through your brain
i dont want you oh no
never again
you beg and you plead
but we'll never be again
just get it through boy
get it through your brain
you beg and you plead
but i know its just a game
Verse 1:
we were one in the same
but that was yesterday
i was blinded by
the tainted truth of you
but now my eyes are open
i see clear blue skies
and i know deep inside
that without you im fine
pre hook:
never thought id see the day
id say goodbye to your face
but that day is today
im taking back my space
chorus:
verse 2:
you used to save me
now u just scare me
obsessed depressed
cant catch a clue
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
nothings gonna chance
we'll still be through
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
get it through boy
get it get it
get it through boy
we're never gonna be again
chorus x2
boy when you gonna
get it through
get it through your brain
i dont want you oh no
never again
you beg and you plead
but we'll never be again
just get it through boy
get it through your brain
you beg and you plead
but i know its just a game
Verse 1:
we were one in the same
but that was yesterday
i was blinded by
the tainted truth of you
but now my eyes are open
i see clear blue skies
and i know deep inside
that without you im fine
pre hook:
never thought id see the day
id say goodbye to your face
but that day is today
im taking back my space
chorus:
verse 2:
you used to save me
now u just scare me
obsessed depressed
cant catch a clue
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
nothings gonna chance
we'll still be through
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
get it through boy
get it get it
get it through boy
we're never gonna be again
chorus x2
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Sunshine on a rainy day
(W.I.P.)
Chorus
in the pouring rain
i still smile
when you tell a funny story
make a silly face
anything you can think of
to make the day bright
make the clouds go away
make the sun shine again
i dont how i would cope
without you my friend
Verse 1:
Chorus
in the pouring rain
i still smile
when you tell a funny story
make a silly face
anything you can think of
to make the day bright
make the clouds go away
make the sun shine again
i dont how i would cope
without you my friend
Verse 1:
Monday, October 12, 2009
See the sun
pitter patter raindrops
tiny feet and flip flops
crushed by the worlds grasp
on my wethered soul
not strong enough to hold up
still feel i fucked up
lost so much and all at once
dont know how i pulled through
with a shoulder to cry on
and a love to hold my hand
i know i'll make it through somehow
and again i will stand
you filled my heart with joy
you were my right hand man
now your the reson for my tears
and the blood on my hands
but i'll see the sun again
just you wait and see
i will beat the hell inside
i will again be happy
but for now i'll cry
at the memory of times past
at the memories not to be made
at the life i leave behind..
tiny feet and flip flops
crushed by the worlds grasp
on my wethered soul
not strong enough to hold up
still feel i fucked up
lost so much and all at once
dont know how i pulled through
with a shoulder to cry on
and a love to hold my hand
i know i'll make it through somehow
and again i will stand
you filled my heart with joy
you were my right hand man
now your the reson for my tears
and the blood on my hands
but i'll see the sun again
just you wait and see
i will beat the hell inside
i will again be happy
but for now i'll cry
at the memory of times past
at the memories not to be made
at the life i leave behind..
outcasted
look what he did
how he's made me feel
i havent been like this
for a great many years
i can write a poem
i can right a song
put it to music
and even sing along
doesnt make me feel any better
doesnt make the hurt go away
just makes me keep thinking
and makes me angry again
i care and it shows
in everything i do
i try to be a friend
but i only get screwed
if only i coulda seen
forcasted this outcome
i coulda stopped it
woulda never happened
if it wasnt for me
you never woulda met
now i'm on the outside
and he's the fucking best
how he's made me feel
i havent been like this
for a great many years
i can write a poem
i can right a song
put it to music
and even sing along
doesnt make me feel any better
doesnt make the hurt go away
just makes me keep thinking
and makes me angry again
i care and it shows
in everything i do
i try to be a friend
but i only get screwed
if only i coulda seen
forcasted this outcome
i coulda stopped it
woulda never happened
if it wasnt for me
you never woulda met
now i'm on the outside
and he's the fucking best
Hurt
im in a hole with no exit
theres nothing i can say or do
to make the hurt fade
to see your feelings
spread out on the page
thought it was forever
now i see it was fake
bond that cant be broken
that was until today
the bond is strong
but you dont know
what i know
or how i feel
you just assume you do
but you havent got a clue
his words ripped into my soul
ripped into my mind
and you stand by his side
in spite of it all
i dont know what to say
i dont know what to do
i know he wants me gone
and he'll get it too
its like deja vu
same as before
but i cant come back
cant fight again
im out of strength
out of air, out of time
and i cant keep holding on
to the memory of what used to be
theres nothing i can say or do
to make the hurt fade
to see your feelings
spread out on the page
thought it was forever
now i see it was fake
bond that cant be broken
that was until today
the bond is strong
but you dont know
what i know
or how i feel
you just assume you do
but you havent got a clue
his words ripped into my soul
ripped into my mind
and you stand by his side
in spite of it all
i dont know what to say
i dont know what to do
i know he wants me gone
and he'll get it too
its like deja vu
same as before
but i cant come back
cant fight again
im out of strength
out of air, out of time
and i cant keep holding on
to the memory of what used to be
Lie, Try, Cry, Die
Chorus:
I lie to hide my face
i try to hold it in
i cry when im alone
while i die on the inside
i lie to hide my pain
i try to fake a smile
i cry when no-ones looking
and die on my own
verse 1:
no one said life was easy
but they never said it was this hard
shoulda come with a manual
or some kinda guid
that tells you when to stand up
and when to run and hide
chorus:
covered in battle scars
that only i can see
the wounds of my trials
the markings of my pain
they may be invisible to you
but it dont mean they aint there
the wounds of my life
made me who i am
verse 2:
i may be who i am
but it gets me nowhere
everyone turns and walks away
and leave me standing there
to fend for myself
and earn a few more scars
whats the harm you ask
she'll be fine on her own
pre hook
chorus
bridge
if i were to leave
without a goodbye
would you even notice
would you even cry
if i left today
and tomorrow never came
would you just forget me
would you feel my pain
chorus
pre hook
chorus to fade
I lie to hide my face
i try to hold it in
i cry when im alone
while i die on the inside
i lie to hide my pain
i try to fake a smile
i cry when no-ones looking
and die on my own
verse 1:
no one said life was easy
but they never said it was this hard
shoulda come with a manual
or some kinda guid
that tells you when to stand up
and when to run and hide
chorus:
covered in battle scars
that only i can see
the wounds of my trials
the markings of my pain
they may be invisible to you
but it dont mean they aint there
the wounds of my life
made me who i am
verse 2:
i may be who i am
but it gets me nowhere
everyone turns and walks away
and leave me standing there
to fend for myself
and earn a few more scars
whats the harm you ask
she'll be fine on her own
pre hook
chorus
bridge
if i were to leave
without a goodbye
would you even notice
would you even cry
if i left today
and tomorrow never came
would you just forget me
would you feel my pain
chorus
pre hook
chorus to fade
Girl in the mirror
chorus:
the only one I trust
in this whole wide world
is the girl in the mirror
but I dont know if I
can even trust her anymore.
Verse 1:
I sit in the corner
of a quiet black room
and wonder to myself
is it really true
did I dream the darkness
or is it still here
touching my cheek
stroking my hair
and leaving me stranded
in a pit of despair
shielded from the sun
as my eyes fade to grey.
Pre hook:
been loved been hurt
been touched been burned
Dont Know whose reality
Dont knows whose fantasy.
All i know thats real is
I can trust nobody.
chorus
verse 2:
lost a few good men
in the war for my soul
been to hell and back again
now I'm just cold and alone
I close my eyes and
the darkness fades
when I open them up
it comes back again
still sitting alone
in a cold dark room
the world has walked away
and left me on my own
Pre hook:
chorus:
Bridge:
No one to trust
No one to hold
No one to love me
And take away the cold
No one to free me
no one to believe me
no one can see me
I'm only the shadow
of who I used to be
chorus:
Pre hook
chorus X2:
the only one I trust
in this whole wide world
is the girl in the mirror
but I dont know if I
can even trust her anymore.
Verse 1:
I sit in the corner
of a quiet black room
and wonder to myself
is it really true
did I dream the darkness
or is it still here
touching my cheek
stroking my hair
and leaving me stranded
in a pit of despair
shielded from the sun
as my eyes fade to grey.
Pre hook:
been loved been hurt
been touched been burned
Dont Know whose reality
Dont knows whose fantasy.
All i know thats real is
I can trust nobody.
chorus
verse 2:
lost a few good men
in the war for my soul
been to hell and back again
now I'm just cold and alone
I close my eyes and
the darkness fades
when I open them up
it comes back again
still sitting alone
in a cold dark room
the world has walked away
and left me on my own
Pre hook:
chorus:
Bridge:
No one to trust
No one to hold
No one to love me
And take away the cold
No one to free me
no one to believe me
no one can see me
I'm only the shadow
of who I used to be
chorus:
Pre hook
chorus X2:
Raped my mind with lies
Raped my mind with lies.
Verse 1:
I always thought you were tru
But I was a blind fool
You were even fooled by
All of your lies
Pre-Chorus.
You spent so long lying
You don’t know whats real
Stuck in a fantasy
Still think you’re the innocent one
Chorus:
You fucking raped my mind
Raped it with all you lies
You raped my mind with lies
And now it is time
For me to seek
My vengeance on you
Time for me to learn
The truth.
Verse 2:
I’m finally wising up to the hype
I know whats real and tru
Finally saw you for what you really are
And quickly got rid of you
PC:
CH:
Bridge:
You raped my mind with your lies
Now it’s time to rape yours
Raped my mind with your stories
Now I know the truth
And I will expose you
Show everyone the REAL you
Then you’ll have nothing
Just the way you wanted me to be
Chorus X2
Verse 1:
I always thought you were tru
But I was a blind fool
You were even fooled by
All of your lies
Pre-Chorus.
You spent so long lying
You don’t know whats real
Stuck in a fantasy
Still think you’re the innocent one
Chorus:
You fucking raped my mind
Raped it with all you lies
You raped my mind with lies
And now it is time
For me to seek
My vengeance on you
Time for me to learn
The truth.
Verse 2:
I’m finally wising up to the hype
I know whats real and tru
Finally saw you for what you really are
And quickly got rid of you
PC:
CH:
Bridge:
You raped my mind with your lies
Now it’s time to rape yours
Raped my mind with your stories
Now I know the truth
And I will expose you
Show everyone the REAL you
Then you’ll have nothing
Just the way you wanted me to be
Chorus X2
Black hole (alter ego)
if i didnt know how to write i dont know where i'd be. probably under the floor somewhere. and without my friends who can tell my mood from a mile away i'll always love you. no matter what happens. if you hurt me i'll be hurt but its my love for you that will hurt me more. so thank you for not hurting me and allowing me to love you safely.
chorus:
tried to hide from it
tried to fight it
tried to deny its weight on me
but i cant ever escape
the darkness consumes me
pulls me down deep
i've gotta break free from this insanity
get me out of this black hole
verse 1:
your all too familiar to me
and your not someone i wanna see
your the figment of the past
of who i used to be
ive grown now
least that what i thought
but you always find a way
to show your face again
and take my light away.
pre hook:
dragging me down to a pit of hate
and handing me the tools
dont wanna take a life
but the other me loves to
Chorus:
verse 2:
she's a demon in a white dress
with blood stains from head to toe
she loves to see the suffering
of the people i hold close
picking at the little things
and telling me to slit thier throats
but if i listen to her words
i'll suffer for an eternity
and never forgive myself.
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
she's made me do it before when i
took a domestic animals life
and came TOO close
to taking the life of man
cant let her stay in my head
or more people will suffer
i should be alone
but its you that keeps me sane
keeps her at bay
and keeps out the dark days.
chorus:
pre hook
chorus X2
chorus:
tried to hide from it
tried to fight it
tried to deny its weight on me
but i cant ever escape
the darkness consumes me
pulls me down deep
i've gotta break free from this insanity
get me out of this black hole
verse 1:
your all too familiar to me
and your not someone i wanna see
your the figment of the past
of who i used to be
ive grown now
least that what i thought
but you always find a way
to show your face again
and take my light away.
pre hook:
dragging me down to a pit of hate
and handing me the tools
dont wanna take a life
but the other me loves to
Chorus:
verse 2:
she's a demon in a white dress
with blood stains from head to toe
she loves to see the suffering
of the people i hold close
picking at the little things
and telling me to slit thier throats
but if i listen to her words
i'll suffer for an eternity
and never forgive myself.
pre hook:
chorus:
bridge:
she's made me do it before when i
took a domestic animals life
and came TOO close
to taking the life of man
cant let her stay in my head
or more people will suffer
i should be alone
but its you that keeps me sane
keeps her at bay
and keeps out the dark days.
chorus:
pre hook
chorus X2
Safe haven
this is dedicated to my friends
if it werent for my friends i know exactly where i'd be... i wouldnt. i'd have died a long time ago but you all took my hand and helped me through the darkest of times and even though our lives take us in different directions we'll always meet up at the cross roads one day and you'll still have a place in my heart for you are my guardian angels and you are my safe haven. you know me inside and out you've seen the real me, the hurt me, the burnt me and you still hold out your hand to me and help me back onto my feet. THANK YOU
chorus:
my safe haven
is where u are
waiting for me with a shoulder
to pour my heart out on
my safe haven is where i go
when i'm lost confused
and alone
you bring the blanket and
warm me up
put a smile on my face
and try your hardest
to make me laugh
verse 1:
i have friends that are past
be it past on or just gone
who's memories keep me here
i still keep old promises
no matter how far you've traveled
or how long we lost touch
you always find your way back
cause friendships never truly die
pre hook:
old friends new friends
lost friends found friends
both tru and untrue friends
if it werent for all my friends
i probably be dust
distant friends close friends
ex friends best friends
no matter what kind of friends
you all mean the world to me
chorus:
verse 2:
i can go to hell and back with you
you could be the one to send me
but i'll always have a place for you
and i'll still cry when u die
for you were a part of my life
in some point in time
i confided in you
trusted in you
and some of you let me down
but its ok cause i still care
and a part of me always will.
cause you were a good friend once
Pre hook
Chorus
Pre hook
Chorus X2
if it werent for my friends i know exactly where i'd be... i wouldnt. i'd have died a long time ago but you all took my hand and helped me through the darkest of times and even though our lives take us in different directions we'll always meet up at the cross roads one day and you'll still have a place in my heart for you are my guardian angels and you are my safe haven. you know me inside and out you've seen the real me, the hurt me, the burnt me and you still hold out your hand to me and help me back onto my feet. THANK YOU
chorus:
my safe haven
is where u are
waiting for me with a shoulder
to pour my heart out on
my safe haven is where i go
when i'm lost confused
and alone
you bring the blanket and
warm me up
put a smile on my face
and try your hardest
to make me laugh
verse 1:
i have friends that are past
be it past on or just gone
who's memories keep me here
i still keep old promises
no matter how far you've traveled
or how long we lost touch
you always find your way back
cause friendships never truly die
pre hook:
old friends new friends
lost friends found friends
both tru and untrue friends
if it werent for all my friends
i probably be dust
distant friends close friends
ex friends best friends
no matter what kind of friends
you all mean the world to me
chorus:
verse 2:
i can go to hell and back with you
you could be the one to send me
but i'll always have a place for you
and i'll still cry when u die
for you were a part of my life
in some point in time
i confided in you
trusted in you
and some of you let me down
but its ok cause i still care
and a part of me always will.
cause you were a good friend once
Pre hook
Chorus
Pre hook
Chorus X2
life's too short
this is a poem i wrote a great many years ago after watching "Pay it forward" for the first time. It's about how unfair it is that small children die while old people do nothing but piss moan and complain about thier lives... my note to them... YOU FUCKERS SHOULD CONSIDER YOURSELVES TRULY BLESSED!!!!
dedicated to PJ Elliott, Tahlia Rosemond, Hayden and Tiffany Lean and any other children that have been taken too soon.
Life's to short:
life's to short
to keep wasting time
before you've even started
its the end of the line
some dont get far
some arent even born
but then for the lucky ones
they live their lives long
to get married
and create more lives
whereas some of us
barely reach 5
its sad to see
as the world goes by
its always depressing
when little children die
when children are forced
it always makes me cry
when i see those little kids
forced to leave the world behind.
dedicated to PJ Elliott, Tahlia Rosemond, Hayden and Tiffany Lean and any other children that have been taken too soon.
Life's to short:
life's to short
to keep wasting time
before you've even started
its the end of the line
some dont get far
some arent even born
but then for the lucky ones
they live their lives long
to get married
and create more lives
whereas some of us
barely reach 5
its sad to see
as the world goes by
its always depressing
when little children die
when children are forced
it always makes me cry
when i see those little kids
forced to leave the world behind.
Fear
you've done it before
maybe not to me
but the threats make me wonder
if next time it will be
tortured as a child
he was supposed to be like a father
but no one believed me
not even my mother
then he picked her up
held her by her throat
i had to pull a knife on him
to make him let her go
all those things he did
the shit he made me view
my deepest fears recognised
worst nightmares came tru
but that fear has gone away
of the pain he put me through
im not scared of him anymore
coz now im scared of you
written on 3/2/2006
maybe not to me
but the threats make me wonder
if next time it will be
tortured as a child
he was supposed to be like a father
but no one believed me
not even my mother
then he picked her up
held her by her throat
i had to pull a knife on him
to make him let her go
all those things he did
the shit he made me view
my deepest fears recognised
worst nightmares came tru
but that fear has gone away
of the pain he put me through
im not scared of him anymore
coz now im scared of you
written on 3/2/2006
Consequences
consequences..
verse 1
for the first time i think
before acting
i stop an take a breath
before opening my mouth
and saying what i feel
for the first time im silent
cause i know
if i say whats on my mind
i'll hurt
or even lose you
and thats the last thing
i ever wanna do
Pre chorus:
i used to speak before thinking
now i cant stop
things i wanna say
things i wanna do
but cant
now im thinking but not speaking
so instead i turn to writing
or im gonna go crazy
chorus:
consequences
can be a mother fucker at times
when you can see em coming
before jumping on that train
its like standing on a bridge
holding the gun
but leaving the bullets at home
im damned if i do
im afraid if i dont
and im going crazy keeping it inside
but the consequences are too much
and even though i want to
i know inside i cant
cause i know i'll lose you if i do
verse 2:
your my sister, my bitch, my girl
and i'll do anything for you
but this i cant keep
deep inside me
i have to let it out
but out of respect for you
im putting it here
on this piece of paper
putting it to this music and
making it a song
cause i know i'll be up shit creek
without a paddle
if i say what im thinking
if i let my tongue waggle
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
consequences
can be a bitch
consequences
keep you centre
but what if you dont wanna be
what if you just wanna
kill the muther fucker
but the backlash would be worse
than any prison term
so for now i lay silent
in the bitterness of my insanity
and wait for the day
when i'll be free
to unleash hell's fury
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
outro:
if it were anyone but you
it'd already be done
but it is you
so im stuck
between a wall and a semi
with a brick on the gas
i really wish things were different
verse 1
for the first time i think
before acting
i stop an take a breath
before opening my mouth
and saying what i feel
for the first time im silent
cause i know
if i say whats on my mind
i'll hurt
or even lose you
and thats the last thing
i ever wanna do
Pre chorus:
i used to speak before thinking
now i cant stop
things i wanna say
things i wanna do
but cant
now im thinking but not speaking
so instead i turn to writing
or im gonna go crazy
chorus:
consequences
can be a mother fucker at times
when you can see em coming
before jumping on that train
its like standing on a bridge
holding the gun
but leaving the bullets at home
im damned if i do
im afraid if i dont
and im going crazy keeping it inside
but the consequences are too much
and even though i want to
i know inside i cant
cause i know i'll lose you if i do
verse 2:
your my sister, my bitch, my girl
and i'll do anything for you
but this i cant keep
deep inside me
i have to let it out
but out of respect for you
im putting it here
on this piece of paper
putting it to this music and
making it a song
cause i know i'll be up shit creek
without a paddle
if i say what im thinking
if i let my tongue waggle
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
consequences
can be a bitch
consequences
keep you centre
but what if you dont wanna be
what if you just wanna
kill the muther fucker
but the backlash would be worse
than any prison term
so for now i lay silent
in the bitterness of my insanity
and wait for the day
when i'll be free
to unleash hell's fury
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
outro:
if it were anyone but you
it'd already be done
but it is you
so im stuck
between a wall and a semi
with a brick on the gas
i really wish things were different
Hells gate
hells gate:
Chorus:
Im the bitch you see
in your darkest nightmare
im the bitch who slits your wrists
with your own spine
and hang you from your ceiling
use your intestines as a noose
this is hells gate
where all the bad bitches go
and im the fucking gate keeper
so watch ya fucking toes
verse 1:
im a crazy bitch
bordering insane
should be locked up
hidden away
to keep the world safe
from my sick and twisted
devilish thoughts and ways
but i'm not hidden
im in plain fucking sight
and your in mine
you've got the mark
you've got the touch
and no one would belive
it was anything but suicide
pre hook:
i got a plan for you
yeh i got a got a got a
i got a plan for you
dont cha wanna hear it
i know ya curious
i know ya wanna hear it
dont ya wanna hear my plan
my lil plan for you
chorus:
verse 2:
hell's one hell of a place
but i love it here
get along like family and
all my friends are here
we like to party
tearing it up
and making a splash
not caring bout the body count
just playing the game
and making up the rules as we go
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
hells gate is a fun place
hells gate's a hell of a place
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
and a soul thats blacker
than anything you could dream
im the gate keeper
and im coming for you
im the gate keeper
i'll bring you back down
to hell where you belong
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
Chorus:
Im the bitch you see
in your darkest nightmare
im the bitch who slits your wrists
with your own spine
and hang you from your ceiling
use your intestines as a noose
this is hells gate
where all the bad bitches go
and im the fucking gate keeper
so watch ya fucking toes
verse 1:
im a crazy bitch
bordering insane
should be locked up
hidden away
to keep the world safe
from my sick and twisted
devilish thoughts and ways
but i'm not hidden
im in plain fucking sight
and your in mine
you've got the mark
you've got the touch
and no one would belive
it was anything but suicide
pre hook:
i got a plan for you
yeh i got a got a got a
i got a plan for you
dont cha wanna hear it
i know ya curious
i know ya wanna hear it
dont ya wanna hear my plan
my lil plan for you
chorus:
verse 2:
hell's one hell of a place
but i love it here
get along like family and
all my friends are here
we like to party
tearing it up
and making a splash
not caring bout the body count
just playing the game
and making up the rules as we go
pre hook
chorus
bridge:
hells gate is a fun place
hells gate's a hell of a place
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
and a soul thats blacker
than anything you could dream
im the gate keeper
and im coming for you
im the gate keeper
i'll bring you back down
to hell where you belong
chorus
pre hook
chorus X2
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