Muse

Chorus:
thinking feeling
now im healing
you make me see
a world i wanna live in
if i can live each day
with you close by
i know i'll be fine
with my muse by my side

verse 1:
i was cold and alone
in a world giving up
i didnt think id ever see
another day of sunshine
but now that your around
even when it rains
i still manage to feel
sunshinee on my face

pre hook:
im a fighter
a songwriter
didnt expect to find
a muse in your eyes
i was heartbroken
death was in cue
now im always smiling
found a muse in you

chorus:

verse 2:
i hope i never lose you
now that you are found
if its really meant to be
youll always be around
not a single tear
not a single dark thought
has entered my mind
since you entered my heart

pre hook:

chorus:

bridge:
i thought you had to be
too good to be tru
took my hand
said you are real
one look in your eyes
i know its the thruth

chorus:

pre hook:

chorus X2:

angela obrien
23/10/09

My girls

this song is dedicated to my girls... you help me through the darkest of times and when im losing my mind you help me find it and i will always have a place in my heart for you... i love you guys

Chorus:
my girls
are always there for me
always care for me
try to keep me laughing
my girls
always down with me
clown around with me
are then when im in need
and i'll love my girls
forever more

Verse 1:
when i feel like i cant
you tell me that i can
when im down for the count
you bring me back to earth
when im ready to give up
you tell me to be strong
that it'll all be over soon
and my hurt will be gone

pre hook:
my girls are my rocks
my prescription pills
if i didnt have em
i wouldnt be around
my girls are my angels
always with an eye
making sure im getting there
and staying by my side

chorus:

verse 2:
i gave up, closed the door
you kicked it down
grabbed my hand
dragging me back accross the floor
out of the darkness
in the light
if it werent for you girls
i know i woulda died... that night

pre hook:

chorus:

bridge:
you are my girls
my gorgeous girls
and i'd be dead
if it werent for you
you saved my life
a thousand times
held my hand and you
never gave up

chorus X2

written by Angela Obrien
17/10/09
(c) copyright australia

Sex song

Verse 1:
you know what to do
to drive me wild
so come on baby
lets go for a ride
we can go anywhere
i dont mind
lets go and paint the town
a new shade of white

pre hook:
im a blank canvas
baby do what you want
keep pressing all my buttons babe
and please dont stop

Chorus:
give it to me baby please
give it to me im down on my knees
give it to me all night long
baby do me till i come

Verse 2:
baby take me now
i cant wait anymore
raise my skirt up high enough
to find no panties on
tie me down with handcuffs
even rope'll do
just get into that room
and baby lets screw

pre hook:

chorus:

bridge:
thats where i want it babe
harder faster give me more
take me baby on the bed
take me on the floor
you can take me anywhere i dont k=mind
coz u got what i need
for a really good time

pre hook

chorus

outtro:
that was awesome babe
you do it like a pro
now get dressed get outta here
before my boyfriend gets home

written by angela obrien on 20/10/2008
(c) Copyright Australia

yeah i was feeling flirty. dont like it? build a bridge...
dec08

hope

this is the first love style song ive written in years so excuse the corniness and crapness hahahaha
its 3am and im listening to MARIO KART LOVESONG... felt inspired...

Chorus:
never thought id see the day
when the sun would shine on me again
but you came around
showed me a better way
showed me that its ok
helped me to smile
i havent smiled like that
in quite a while
didnt know i still could

Verse 1:
theres something about you
i cant quite understand
is why you go out of your way
to take me by the hand
showed me theres still hope
and that i cant give up
made me feel worth something
made me feel special

pre hook:
they're a dying breed
people like you
but some people are lucky
to find one of the few
hope i can be one of them
since ive found you
but im already lucky
for just knowing you

chorus

verse 2
havent written with my heart
in quite some time
but theres just something there now
makes me see i can
pick up a pencil, a pad and a pen
sit down and write
something that golden
cause you are my muse

pre hook:

chorus:

bridge:
i thought it was gone
never to come back
then you opened my eyes
and now i see
hope is still within me

chorus x2

written by Angela O'Brien
20/10/09

Forever and Allways

2nd attempt at this song... grrfucken hahahaha had just finished the first one and it dissapeared :(:S...
dedicated to chloe leigh.

verse 1:
i still remember the day
when we first met
had a few drinks
slept in the same bed
who woulda thought
we'd ever come this far
and still be friends
6 years later

pre hook:
been to hell and back
sent each other there
always come back better
and even stronger friends

chorus:
forever and always
you and me
we pick each other up
tear each other down
make each other bleed
but we'll still be friends
till we fade away
forver and always

verse 2:
we're like 2 halves
of the same person
syncronized in heart and mind
twin souls you and me
you bring out the best in me
you bring out the worst in me
but no mater what youve done to me
your still part of my family

pre hook

chorus

bridge:
been to hell and back again
still managed to stay friends
some people say we're nuts
shouldnt trust each other
sometimes we prolly shouldnt
but we do coz our bond is stronger
than anything people can comprehend

chorus

pre hook

chorus x2

The tatoo that me n chloe are going to get together to not only symbolise our friendship but to symbolise new beginnings.

Sacrifice

dont ask where it came from coz i honestly dont know


Chorus:
give my life
to save you
sacrifice my mind
to leave yours inside
sacrifice my heart
for you too survive
id do anything for you
coz your my life

verse 1:
your the reason my heart beats
the reason my mind thinks
the reason my life keeps going
the reason im happy
now your gone my heart stopped
my mind is froze
and my life is gone
i know ill die alone

prehook
if i could if i could
give my life
in exchange for you back
id do it without thinking

chorus:

verse 2:
my world was so bright
when u brought in the sun
now that uve faded away
night fills my days
no stars no moon
nothing but empty space
as i sit in a corner
and cry away my pain

pre hook

chorus

bridge:
my bitter sweet sacrifice
for you id lay my life
oh my bittersweet sacrifice
wish you knew that ive tried
but i can see now
no matter what i do
youll never be mine again
rest in piece my lover, my friend
ill never forget you

chorus

pre hook

chorus X2

written by angela obrien
21/10/09
(c) copyright australia

Innocence

as i lay me down to sleep
i pray it'll be my last
cause every morning i awake
with harsh memories of my past.

i thought id get through
my friends helped me keep the felings at bay
thought i could look you in the eye
and not feel the same

but when i see you i go back
to the days when you'd pay
to put your hands on me
took my innocence away

i tried to end my life
i tried to end yours
but both of us r living
and im still broken and sore

believed you, trusted you
was fooled by you
you only wanted to play
your sick n twisted games

who woulda thought that
after 6 years i'd still bleed
as if it was yesterday
i still remember your hand on me

Legacy

this song has come from seeing a picture of yet another abused child... why do people have children and then turn around and take them from the world? a child is a miracle and can single handedly change your life forever. ivve seen too many videos of abused children and when its not leaving me in tears its sending me to the toilet to throw up... as a mother i know how stressful being a parent can be and as a post sufferer of PND i know that it can feel like its too much at times but i just dont understand how a parent can do that to thier own flesh and blood... rapists and murderers are nothing compared to a person who can take the life of something THEY created.

Legacy:

chorus:
how you can put your hands
on something that you made
and watch those tiny eyes
slowly fade to black
how can you take the life
of something that you made
take your ownly legacy
and make it fade away

verse 1
so young so sweet
i smile when you smile
laugh when you laugh
grandma loves you
now ill never see
your rosy red cheeks
ten fingers ten toes
cute lil button nose

pre hook:
so innocent
so sweet
taken away
my legacy
so innocent
so cute
taken away
by you

chorus:

verse 2:
i just dont understand how it works
how can you not love your blood
how can you not love
if its your own dna
how can you take away
something so sweet n small
how can you hate
something so innocent
how can you hate me
let it all go to waste

bridge:
abused by you
tortured by you
never knew
a real life
murdered by you
destroyed by you
never to see
another day

chorus:

pre hook:

chours:

pre hook:

written by angela obrien
22/10/09

Get it through

chorus:
boy when you gonna
get it through
get it through your brain
i dont want you oh no
never again
you beg and you plead
but we'll never be again
just get it through boy
get it through your brain
you beg and you plead
but i know its just a game

Verse 1:
we were one in the same
but that was yesterday
i was blinded by
the tainted truth of you
but now my eyes are open
i see clear blue skies
and i know deep inside
that without you im fine

pre hook:
never thought id see the day
id say goodbye to your face
but that day is today
im taking back my space

chorus:

verse 2:
you used to save me
now u just scare me
obsessed depressed
cant catch a clue
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
nothings gonna chance
we'll still be through

pre hook

chorus

bridge:
get it through boy
get it get it
get it through boy
we're never gonna be again

chorus x2

Sunshine on a rainy day

(W.I.P.)

Chorus
in the pouring rain
i still smile
when you tell a funny story
make a silly face
anything you can think of
to make the day bright
make the clouds go away
make the sun shine again
i dont how i would cope
without you my friend

Verse 1:

See the sun

pitter patter raindrops
tiny feet and flip flops
crushed by the worlds grasp
on my wethered soul

not strong enough to hold up
still feel i fucked up
lost so much and all at once
dont know how i pulled through

with a shoulder to cry on
and a love to hold my hand
i know i'll make it through somehow
and again i will stand

you filled my heart with joy
you were my right hand man
now your the reson for my tears
and the blood on my hands

but i'll see the sun again
just you wait and see
i will beat the hell inside
i will again be happy

but for now i'll cry
at the memory of times past
at the memories not to be made
at the life i leave behind..

outcasted

look what he did
how he's made me feel
i havent been like this
for a great many years

i can write a poem
i can right a song
put it to music
and even sing along

doesnt make me feel any better
doesnt make the hurt go away
just makes me keep thinking
and makes me angry again

i care and it shows
in everything i do
i try to be a friend
but i only get screwed

if only i coulda seen
forcasted this outcome
i coulda stopped it
woulda never happened

if it wasnt for me
you never woulda met
now i'm on the outside
and he's the fucking best

Hurt

im in a hole with no exit
theres nothing i can say or do
to make the hurt fade
to see your feelings
spread out on the page

thought it was forever
now i see it was fake
bond that cant be broken
that was until today

the bond is strong
but you dont know
what i know
or how i feel
you just assume you do
but you havent got a clue

his words ripped into my soul
ripped into my mind
and you stand by his side
in spite of it all

i dont know what to say
i dont know what to do
i know he wants me gone
and he'll get it too

its like deja vu
same as before
but i cant come back
cant fight again

im out of strength
out of air, out of time
and i cant keep holding on
to the memory of what used to be

Lie, Try, Cry, Die

Chorus:
I lie to hide my face
i try to hold it in
i cry when im alone
while i die on the inside
i lie to hide my pain
i try to fake a smile
i cry when no-ones looking
and die on my own

verse 1:
no one said life was easy
but they never said it was this hard
shoulda come with a manual
or some kinda guid
that tells you when to stand up
and when to run and hide

chorus:
covered in battle scars
that only i can see
the wounds of my trials
the markings of my pain
they may be invisible to you
but it dont mean they aint there
the wounds of my life
made me who i am

verse 2:
i may be who i am
but it gets me nowhere
everyone turns and walks away
and leave me standing there
to fend for myself
and earn a few more scars
whats the harm you ask
she'll be fine on her own

pre hook

chorus

bridge
if i were to leave
without a goodbye
would you even notice
would you even cry
if i left today
and tomorrow never came
would you just forget me
would you feel my pain

chorus

pre hook

chorus to fade

Girl in the mirror

chorus:
the only one I trust
in this whole wide world
is the girl in the mirror
but I dont know if I
can even trust her anymore.

Verse 1:
I sit in the corner
of a quiet black room
and wonder to myself
is it really true
did I dream the darkness
or is it still here
touching my cheek
stroking my hair
and leaving me stranded
in a pit of despair
shielded from the sun
as my eyes fade to grey.

Pre hook:
been loved been hurt
been touched been burned
Dont Know whose reality
Dont knows whose fantasy.
All i know thats real is
I can trust nobody.

chorus

verse 2:
lost a few good men
in the war for my soul
been to hell and back again
now I'm just cold and alone
I close my eyes and
the darkness fades
when I open them up
it comes back again
still sitting alone
in a cold dark room
the world has walked away
and left me on my own

Pre hook:

chorus:

Bridge:
No one to trust
No one to hold
No one to love me
And take away the cold
No one to free me
no one to believe me
no one can see me
I'm only the shadow
of who I used to be

chorus:

Pre hook

chorus X2:

Raped my mind with lies

Raped my mind with lies.

Verse 1:
I always thought you were tru
But I was a blind fool
You were even fooled by
All of your lies

Pre-Chorus.
You spent so long lying
You don’t know whats real
Stuck in a fantasy
Still think you’re the innocent one

Chorus:
You fucking raped my mind
Raped it with all you lies
You raped my mind with lies
And now it is time
For me to seek
My vengeance on you
Time for me to learn
The truth.

Verse 2:
I’m finally wising up to the hype
I know whats real and tru
Finally saw you for what you really are
And quickly got rid of you

PC:

CH:

Bridge:
You raped my mind with your lies
Now it’s time to rape yours
Raped my mind with your stories
Now I know the truth
And I will expose you
Show everyone the REAL you
Then you’ll have nothing
Just the way you wanted me to be

Chorus X2

Black hole (alter ego)

if i didnt know how to write i dont know where i'd be. probably under the floor somewhere. and without my friends who can tell my mood from a mile away i'll always love you. no matter what happens. if you hurt me i'll be hurt but its my love for you that will hurt me more. so thank you for not hurting me and allowing me to love you safely.

chorus:
tried to hide from it
tried to fight it
tried to deny its weight on me
but i cant ever escape
the darkness consumes me
pulls me down deep
i've gotta break free from this insanity
get me out of this black hole

verse 1:
your all too familiar to me
and your not someone i wanna see
your the figment of the past
of who i used to be
ive grown now
least that what i thought
but you always find a way
to show your face again
and take my light away.

pre hook:
dragging me down to a pit of hate
and handing me the tools
dont wanna take a life
but the other me loves to

Chorus:

verse 2:
she's a demon in a white dress
with blood stains from head to toe
she loves to see the suffering
of the people i hold close
picking at the little things
and telling me to slit thier throats
but if i listen to her words
i'll suffer for an eternity
and never forgive myself.

pre hook:

chorus:

bridge:
she's made me do it before when i
took a domestic animals life
and came TOO close
to taking the life of man
cant let her stay in my head
or more people will suffer
i should be alone
but its you that keeps me sane
keeps her at bay
and keeps out the dark days.

chorus:

pre hook

chorus X2

Safe haven

this is dedicated to my friends

if it werent for my friends i know exactly where i'd be... i wouldnt. i'd have died a long time ago but you all took my hand and helped me through the darkest of times and even though our lives take us in different directions we'll always meet up at the cross roads one day and you'll still have a place in my heart for you are my guardian angels and you are my safe haven. you know me inside and out you've seen the real me, the hurt me, the burnt me and you still hold out your hand to me and help me back onto my feet. THANK YOU

chorus:
my safe haven
is where u are
waiting for me with a shoulder
to pour my heart out on
my safe haven is where i go
when i'm lost confused
and alone
you bring the blanket and
warm me up
put a smile on my face
and try your hardest
to make me laugh

verse 1:
i have friends that are past
be it past on or just gone
who's memories keep me here
i still keep old promises
no matter how far you've traveled
or how long we lost touch
you always find your way back
cause friendships never truly die

pre hook:
old friends new friends
lost friends found friends
both tru and untrue friends
if it werent for all my friends
i probably be dust
distant friends close friends
ex friends best friends
no matter what kind of friends
you all mean the world to me

chorus:

verse 2:
i can go to hell and back with you
you could be the one to send me
but i'll always have a place for you
and i'll still cry when u die
for you were a part of my life
in some point in time
i confided in you
trusted in you
and some of you let me down
but its ok cause i still care
and a part of me always will.
cause you were a good friend once

Pre hook

Chorus

Pre hook

Chorus X2

life's too short

this is a poem i wrote a great many years ago after watching "Pay it forward" for the first time. It's about how unfair it is that small children die while old people do nothing but piss moan and complain about thier lives... my note to them... YOU FUCKERS SHOULD CONSIDER YOURSELVES TRULY BLESSED!!!!

dedicated to PJ Elliott, Tahlia Rosemond, Hayden and Tiffany Lean and any other children that have been taken too soon.

Life's to short:

life's to short
to keep wasting time
before you've even started
its the end of the line

some dont get far
some arent even born
but then for the lucky ones
they live their lives long

to get married
and create more lives
whereas some of us
barely reach 5

its sad to see
as the world goes by
its always depressing
when little children die

when children are forced
it always makes me cry
when i see those little kids
forced to leave the world behind.

Fear

you've done it before
maybe not to me
but the threats make me wonder
if next time it will be

tortured as a child
he was supposed to be like a father
but no one believed me
not even my mother

then he picked her up
held her by her throat
i had to pull a knife on him
to make him let her go

all those things he did
the shit he made me view
my deepest fears recognised
worst nightmares came tru

but that fear has gone away
of the pain he put me through
im not scared of him anymore
coz now im scared of you

written on 3/2/2006

Consequences

consequences..

verse 1
for the first time i think
before acting
i stop an take a breath
before opening my mouth
and saying what i feel
for the first time im silent
cause i know
if i say whats on my mind
i'll hurt
or even lose you
and thats the last thing
i ever wanna do

Pre chorus:
i used to speak before thinking
now i cant stop
things i wanna say
things i wanna do
but cant
now im thinking but not speaking
so instead i turn to writing
or im gonna go crazy

chorus:
consequences
can be a mother fucker at times
when you can see em coming
before jumping on that train
its like standing on a bridge
holding the gun
but leaving the bullets at home
im damned if i do
im afraid if i dont
and im going crazy keeping it inside
but the consequences are too much
and even though i want to
i know inside i cant
cause i know i'll lose you if i do

verse 2:
your my sister, my bitch, my girl
and i'll do anything for you
but this i cant keep
deep inside me
i have to let it out
but out of respect for you
im putting it here
on this piece of paper
putting it to this music and
making it a song
cause i know i'll be up shit creek
without a paddle
if i say what im thinking
if i let my tongue waggle

pre hook

chorus

bridge:
consequences
can be a bitch
consequences
keep you centre
but what if you dont wanna be
what if you just wanna
kill the muther fucker
but the backlash would be worse
than any prison term
so for now i lay silent
in the bitterness of my insanity
and wait for the day
when i'll be free
to unleash hell's fury

chorus

pre hook

chorus X2

outro:
if it were anyone but you
it'd already be done
but it is you
so im stuck
between a wall and a semi
with a brick on the gas

i really wish things were different

Hells gate

hells gate:

Chorus:
Im the bitch you see
in your darkest nightmare
im the bitch who slits your wrists
with your own spine
and hang you from your ceiling
use your intestines as a noose
this is hells gate
where all the bad bitches go
and im the fucking gate keeper
so watch ya fucking toes

verse 1:
im a crazy bitch
bordering insane
should be locked up
hidden away
to keep the world safe
from my sick and twisted
devilish thoughts and ways
but i'm not hidden
im in plain fucking sight
and your in mine
you've got the mark
you've got the touch
and no one would belive
it was anything but suicide

pre hook:
i got a plan for you
yeh i got a got a got a
i got a plan for you
dont cha wanna hear it
i know ya curious
i know ya wanna hear it
dont ya wanna hear my plan
my lil plan for you

chorus:

verse 2:
hell's one hell of a place
but i love it here
get along like family and
all my friends are here
we like to party
tearing it up
and making a splash
not caring bout the body count
just playing the game
and making up the rules as we go

pre hook

chorus

bridge:
hells gate is a fun place
hells gate's a hell of a place
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
im the keeper of the gate
the demon with blue eyes
and a soul thats blacker
than anything you could dream
im the gate keeper
and im coming for you
im the gate keeper
i'll bring you back down
to hell where you belong

chorus

pre hook

chorus X2