My heart is the worst kind of weapon

It's killing me inside
But behind my fake smile, I try to hide
It doesn't matter what I say or do
I just can't stop loving you

I don't even remember what you did
That made me fall so hard, so quick
But now that I'm here, at this time
Without you I don't know how to survive

My heart plays tricks on my mind
Makes me beleive that everything will be fine
Problem is I can't convince myself of anything else
Cause you're still there when I really need your help

My body will be ok after a while
But my heart dies more, with every fake smile
I just don't know if I'll ever be the same
How can I beleive it was all just a game

The things you said and did
I won't beleive it was just for kicks
You told a whole bunch of people you loved me
How could that be anything but reality

My heart is the worst kind of weapon
It's feeds me lies and kills me from within
All I know is that I actually love you
And I don't forsee a day when it will no longer, be true

Angela M OBrien
27/7/11