Rejection

I have just felt the worst pain known to any parent in a broken home situation... But I refuse to keep it in...

"Regection"

I brought you into this world

Now you dont want to know me

I nurtured you when you weren't well

Now you dont want to see my face

I was there for you, cared for you

But to you that means nothing

I was the one who gave you life

Doesn't that count for something

What did I do to deserve this

Did I do something wrong

How can my blood turn on me like this

How do I stay strong

How do I hold my head up

How do I stop from breaking down

How am I supposed to just live with it

When I've been rejected by my first born

She doesn't want to know me

Doesn't even want to say hi

How do I go on knowing that

Why can't i just lay down and die

There is no pain I can imagine

That would be worse than this

To know your child can survive without you

That you wont even be missed

I want to curl up and cry

But the tears just wont come

I can't let this hit me too hard

I'm just left feeling numb

Angela M OBrien

24/6/11