Hurt

This is from the deepest parts of my soul and is me being completely raw... forget everything else you've seen, this is me, the real me... Enjoy...

"Hurt"

I gave up the fight even before I was born

Happiness for me was never foreseen

I would always be broken and torn

Never fulfill a single dream

There is never tears in my eyes

I'm too far gone to be able to cry

People think it's heartlessness but it's just me

I always wear a cheery smile while inside I bleed

I trust too easy, let go too easy,

I have no faith

All it takes is a whisper in my ear

Before I throw it all away

I need someone in my life who will take me by the hand

Show me it's ok to trust in the words of others, to have a little faith

To not listen to the whispers unless I know for certain

That's its more than just daggers and spades

Why does it all pile up

Why can't it come in sections

I don't deal with one thing at a time

I cop it all at once

From my health to your game

I don't know what's real

I don't know if you're serious

Or if I'll live long enough to find out

I'm overcome with fear

That it will be true for both

That you really did play me and

I wont see my kids grow old

I thought I knew what it meant to hurt

I thought I knew the meaning of pain

But nothing compares to this

I wish I could wake up from this horrid dream

Angela M OBrien

12/7/11