Dying

"dying"

I thought this heartache

was the worst I could suffer

But that's not all

I may not live to love another

I actually loved you

Which is hard for me to do

I may not have the time

To find someone to replace you

I'm dying

And there is nothing I can do

I just sit here and bear it

Until my life is through

I may not see thirty now

And i'm scared beyond belief

I dont want to see my loved ones cry

Watch them suffer from grief

I want to be here

I dont want to die

I'm not finished what i need to do

The fear makes me cry

I've never been so scared

Of anything in my life

Now the greatest fear i'll ever had

Is that from this i will die

If I don't get the help I need

I may not see twenty-five

It's only two months away

God, please keep me alive

I'm not ready to leave yet

I'm not ready to say goodbye

Why does my body start failing on me

When I say I dont wanna die

im so scared...

Angela M OBrien

10/7/11