Terrified

I thought that you would walk away,

If I shared my past with you,

Now I'm absolutely terrified,

That it may be true.

But that pails in comparison,

To what's really scaring me,

Everything tastes like dirt now,

And I have no appetite.

I'm terrified that my body gave up,

In the same way you did,

I'm so afraid that it's too late,

That I wont come back from this.

I don't want to go anywhere,

I want to stay here, with you,

But we may not have a choice anymore,

Fate may step in, forcing me to lose.

Im terrified of where I'm at,

Never been this low before,

I can't seem to relax,

I can't sleep anymore.

Im absolutely terrified,

I don't know what to do,

I actually feel relatively fine,

But I know that's far from true.

Angela M OBrien

16/10/11