Fears and regrets

I'm afraid to know what you're thinking

Though I think I already know

I regret having told you and I wouldn't have

If i'd known it would make you go

I fear that I'm right,

That you really want to leave,

This fear is tearing me up inside,

Making it hard to breathe.

Had I known what knowledge would do,

I'd have never said a word,

I'm regretting trusting you with it now,

Coz your silence really fucking hurts.

I wish you would talk to me,

I'm scared you never will though,

I'm afraid to think of it being possible,

That this could actually make you go.

I need you in my life,

You're my strength when I have none,

I just hope you can accept my past,

And we can still be one.

I love you

I trust you,

But I don't think you realise,

How hard that is for me.

Angela M OBrien

12/10/11